A dreamer

"Nothing new today, just the same old walkaways.  And someday I’m gonna stay, but not today." - The Counting Crows

I’m in one of those moods again.  I need to get out–get out of Rivers, get out of Manila, get somebody out of my system.  I don’t know what exactly is stopping me (well for one, I’m broke so I can’t really go to Palawan and sulk).  I have some responsibilities in the community that I can’t just walk out from (yeah, right).  Or maybe, I’m just too chicken

I read in one of those worship articles that ‘God uses the simplest things to speak to us.’  So now I am looking for those ’simple things’ just to affirm myself that there is a reason why God allowed me to feel this way.  Maybe I am trying too hard because right now–I really can’t find any.

Aaarrgh!

I feel so lazy–I don’t want to go to work anymore and I don’t feel like going to that side of Makati (a.k.a. St. Paul) either.  I just want to stay home and watch ‘House M.D.’ (I am soooooo in love with Dr. House)…listen over and over to 6cyclemind’s "I" or Shinedown’s "I Dare You"…stare into space…lie down and feel the cold side of my pillow.

"Look at me, my depth perception must be off again cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did.  It has not healed with time–it just shot down my spine.  You look so beautiful tonight–reminds me how you laid us down and gently smiled before you destroyed my life.  Would you find it in your heart to make this go away and let me rest in pieces?" - Salive

Sometimes I wish I could just stop feeling.

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