A dreamer

–i’ve been seeing this movie a lot lately at star movies. it brings back a lot of fun memories :)  i fell in love with heath ledger in ‘a knight’s tale’ but i believe he was just so adorable in this movie especially when he sang ‘can’t take my eyes off you.’  enough of the blabber, here’s that angst-ridden poem from julia stiles.–

"i hate the way you talk to me and the way you cut your hair.  i hate the way you drive my car.  i hate it when you stare.  i hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind.  i hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme.  i hate the way you’re always right.  i hate it when you lie.  i hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.  i hate it when you’re not around and the fact that you didn’t call.  but mostly i hate the way i don’t hate you–not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all."

"Although I know that I may have lost forever the woman I love, I must try to enjoy all the graces that God has given me today.  Grace cannot be hoarded.  There are no banks where it can be deposited to be used when I feel more at peace with myself.  If I do not make full use of these blessings, I will lose them forever.

God knows that we are all artists of life.  One day, he gives us a hammer with which to make sculptures, another day he gives us brushes and paints with which to make a picture, or paper and a pencil to write with.  But you cannot make a painitng with a hammer, or a sculpture with a paintbrush.  Therefore, however difficult it may be, I must accept today’s small blessings, even if they seem like curses because I am suffering and it’s a beautiful day, the sun is shining, and the children are singing in the street.  This is the only way I will manage to leave my pain behind and rebuild my life." - Paulo Coelho, "the Zahir"

the most important things are the hardest things to say. they are things you get ashamed of because words diminish them–words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they’re brought out. but it’s more than that, isn’t it?

the most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried. like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. and you may make revelations that cost you dearly. only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you’ve said at all or why you thought it was important that you cried while you were saying it.

that’s the worst. when the secret stays locked within, not for want of a teller, but for want of an understanding ear.

- stephen king

this song has been playing over and over and over in my mind…another LSS! bwahahahaha :)  i’ve always loved nickelback especially chad kroeger (thanks, mylinda!). it’s a lovely song–a true blue rock ballad…

Far Away

this time, this place

misused, mistakes

too long, too late

who was i to make you wait

just one chance

just one breath

just in case there’s just one left

’cause you know, you know, you know…

Chorus:

that i love you

i have loved you all along

and i miss you

been far away for far too long

i keep dreaming you’ll be with me

and you’ll never go

stop breathing

if i don’t see you anymore

on my knees, i’ll ask

last chance for one last dance

cause with you, i’d withstand

all of hell to hold your hand

i’d give it all

i’d give for us

give anything but i won’t give up

cause you know, you know, you know… (chorus)

so far away, been far away for far too long

so far away, been far away for far too long

but you know, you know, you know…

i wanted, i wanted you to stay

cause i needed, i need to hear you say

that i love you, i have loved you all along

and i forgive you for being away for far too long

so keep breathing, cause i’m not leaving

hold on to me and never let me go